Life has a way of making us grow up...whether or not we're ready. From the time I was about 18, I'd always wanted a child. I would get so excited each month, only to be let down. Mind you, I got married to my first husband at the age of 19 (1989). For all the years of our marriage, I was pretty much told by all the doctors that it was my fault I wasn't getting pregnant because I was overweight...obese. No tests were ever run, nothing. Just pure judgmental speculation that it was my fault due to being....fat. Fast forward to 2004......I was surprised to find out, in July, that my then husband and I were expecting. Though we were excited, it didn't last very long. I started getting sick (which I hadn't been doing). I should have known something was wrong...but ignored it. We found out the day of my 34th birthday that the baby was dead and I would miscarry (which happened the next night). Due to me "flipping out" (as my ex put it), we ended up separated in 2005, divorced in 2006.
In April, 2006, I met James. I wasn't looking for a long term relationship, much less a marriage partner, or even a baby daddy. However, all three happened (not in that order). I got pregnant (much to my surprise) seven months into our relationship. Our son, Jesse, was born in August, 2007. I should have known something was up because he didn't sleep like other babies did. Even at a week old, he'd lie on the couch after being changed and just wiggle, wiggle, wiggle....looking everywhere. Naps, what were those? When he took one, it lasted maybe 30 minutes tops. Even at night it was like this.....two hours sleep, wake up, eat, wanna play for another 2-3...then repeat. Our son didn't sleep all the way through the night until he was almost 3. Needless to say, I was an exhausted momma. I didn't understand why he was so active, why he didn't want to sleep. Even when I mentioned things to his THEN pediatrician, I was treated as I were some 13 yr old first time momma. Mind you, I turned 37 eighteen days after his birth. I didn't understand why he'd scream bloody murder when we'd go to the store. I didn't understand why he behaved any of the ways he behaved.
By the time he was about 4, we changed his pediatrician. Allergy test done. Boom...milk allergy. Thankfully, I'd gone against the previous Pediatrician and taken him completely off milk. Next thing, an "evaluation" for Asperger Syndrome and ADHD (the latter never being in question). It took us until December 2012, to finally get the diagnosis of an Autism Spectrum Disorder and Sensory Processing Disorder.
I went through sharing all of this because it's important to the rest of this blog.
For many years, I've "mourned" the child I didn't have. I cried because I didn't have a "normal" son. I viewed my son as broken in some way. It hurts me even typing this. However, it's important because I know there are others who've felt this way, but were too afraid of saying it. You see, I waited a long time for a child. I couldn't wait to take my son to Chuck-E- Cheese. I couldn't wait to watch the fireworks on July 4th and listen to him "ooooo" and "ahhhh". That stopped by the age of 4. The "boom" of fireworks scares him. The mouse at Chuck-E-Cheese terrifies him. Rubber fishing bait grosses him out...and he will run from it. The sound of certain motorcycles will make him run off in terror, screaming, so he can "hide". Once again, he's afraid of the dark....so much so that the doors have to be closed completely, curtains must be closed completely, every light in the house must be on (just for him to go to the bathroom). In the bathroom, the shower curtain must be closed so he can't "see" the dark. His snacks must always be in the same wrapper, or he will not eat it. This year, the sound of the brakes on his bus bothers him. Listening? Quite often, I must yell in order to be louder than the other things begging for his attention or other things that overwhelm him. When his senses get so overloaded, being pushed over the edge leads to a meltdown. This is different from a tantrum. He doesn't care who sees it. He doesn't care how he's perceived to be behaving. All he sees is what's directly in front of him...and it's usually me or his daddy. We hold him, when necessary, so he can fight the meltdown out without injuring himself, but mostly so no one else is injured. See, our lil man likes to fight during a meltdown. He doesn't, at that time, realize what he's doing. Once a meltdown is over, though, PEACE must be maintained because his little brain is still worked up. What we got through, what Jesse deals with, is mild in comparison to what some others go through.
I don't look at autism as a gift from God. Our son is a gift from God. If I could take the autism away, I would. Sometimes, one of the most difficult things to do is look him in the face and seeing a "normal" child. No matter how "normal" he behaves, he has a lost look in his eyes. It's this look like he's trapped within himself..and can't get out. Mind you, he may not feel that way. I don't know. He doesn't know how to express his often mixed emotions...at such a young age. The thing is, I admitted this to my sister one morning on the phone. I broke my heart to hear the words flow from my mouth, even as it hurts just reading the words as I type. I finally admitted to someone that I had a "broken" child. I felt so selfish for even thinking it, much less saying it. How could I, his mother, feel that way about him? I didn't get to be the mommy I'd always hoped I'd get to be. I was forced to become an alternative version of her. Even now, the realization of that hurts so deeply. BUT.....my son didn't ask to be born with Autism. Yes, if I could take it away I would. However, my job isn't to try and "fix" him. My job is to love him. My job is to raise him.
I no longer grieve the child I didn't have. Now, I sometimes cry for the years I lost in not bonding better with him (though we've been bonding over the past 3 yrs or so). See, I didn't "bond" with my son when he was younger. I kept hearing things like "what are you doing to that child" or "why is he acting like that". Even when he'd have a night terror, I'd be asked what I had done wrong. Even now, people tell me that they don't have problems with our son's behavior. Though I know they don't mean it like this (at least I hope they don't), it makes me feel as if I'm a bad mommy...that I'm the one causing his behavior. I cry so much, sometimes, because my heart aches....not just for how I feel, but how my son must feel. Every day, seeing things much brighter than I. Every day, hearing things much louder than I. Every day, his sense of touch much more sensitive than mine. I've realized....my son wasn't the one who was broken.....I am. I was broken.
Our son is a blessing. I've learned so much from him. I'm learning how to be a better momma. No, I do NOT pray for patience (it's tried enough already...lol). Yes, I still have to explain to people that we don't do certain things, don't go to certain places, don't sing happy birthday, don't have balloons of any kind, etc. Now, I take joy in every laugh (whether appropriate or not). I take joy in every smile. I take joy in every sparkle he gets in his eyes. Just a giggle in his sleep makes me smile. I have the most loving son on the planet (yes, he loves to snuggle).
This blog wasn't written for sympathy. It was written because I want other parents to know that they have a safe haven to express the type of feelings that I've had....without being ridiculed. My life has been enriched so much by my husband and our son (as well as my step son). I am forever grateful for the "legos" I've stepped on to get to this point. Yes, it's been a mentally and emotionally painful 6 yr journey to get to this point; however, I finally reached it. Be the shoulder for someone to cry on. Be the arms that just give them a hug while they cry. Be a rock when they can't even find the strength to stand. Parents of special needs children may seem tough, and we are...we don't have a choice; however, even we need someone to just "be there". That's my advice in this one...."just be there". Trust me, that is the best thing anyone can do.
Sunday, December 1, 2013
Thursday, October 31, 2013
Truly loving your neighbor as yourself
While
some choose to discount Psychology, I've been learning true mental
illness is quite real. It's NOT some fabricated mental state due to
someone turning one's back on Jesus or neglecting the healing power of
the Creator. There are legitimate occurrences in the brain that bring
these issues on. ONLY in understanding the true nature of mental illness
can one truly pray for God's way of healing in a person. Yes,
there are those who make light of mental issues. It is they who give the
truly needful people a bad name. How can we tell someone to "just look
to Jesus" or "turn it over to God", or the infamous "God won't give you
more than you can bear" while choosing to negate the possibility that
there could be a reason behind the issue? God doesn't put mental illness
on us (or in our brains). Yes, He is the answer; however, how can we
even point a person to the answer if the chemicals in the brain aren't
getting the right message to where it needs to be? We can't. By blaming
the person who has legitimate chemical imbalance, we, in essence, are
telling that person that he/she is a let down to God, the Creator. Not
everyone is born with perfectly firing neurons. Sometimes, those little
things just misfire. This brings so many possible issues into the mix. I
believe, that with accurate diagnosis, this will help a person (even a
Christian Psychologist...or even a Psychologist who prays) properly pray
for the exact healing a person needs. Sometimes, it could be a minor as
a vitamin, mineral, or amino acid deficiency. Other times, it could be
mental exhaustion or stress. There are other times, however, that the
answer isn't that simple. When the neurons in our bodies don't send the
right messages, or even fail to send one, it can cause many things to
happen to the brain...to the way someone thinks or feels. I also
learned, through my Psychology class reading, exactly WHY God wants His
creation to wait for sex until marriage. It's because there's a
neurotransmitter that helps us to physically bond with someone. That's
why the Bible says that the "two shall become one flesh". It's the same
neurotransmitter/hormone, that helps a momma kiss and hold a child after
that child has caused pain of any kind (to the mother). There are other
neurotransmitters that are responsible for our sleep patterns, how we
feel, etc. When any of these is "off" or not being forwarded as they
should, it's a problem. Before we condemn someone with a possible mental
illness, maybe we should take the time to find out exactly what is
causing it (should there be one). We are taught to "rightfully divide
the word of truth" because God's word is truth. While we are doing that,
though, let's ask God's guidance in praying for someone. If someone is
afraid, it's not good enough to simply "rebuke the feeling of fear". How
about praying for God's peace, you know, that peace that passes all
understanding, to stand guard over that person. We should also tell the
person that "God's NOT given us a spirit of fear, but one of power, love
and a sound mind." Instead of telling a person to "give their problems
to God", how about we pray that the person get into God's will and that
His Spirit will lead that person on the path that he/she should go.
God's word has all the answers we need. We, though, need to learn how to
ask God the correct way to pray for someone. Stop being selfish and
praying the way YOU think God wants you to pray. THAT is the essence of
truly loving and praying for someone. Only in praying that way, will we
Christians, as a whole, truly begin to love our neighbors as ourselves.
Sunday, October 20, 2013
Don't be so earthly minded that you're no heavenly good
Deedee, don't get so heavenly minded that you're no earthly good. I
watched a sermon this morning titled, "State of Rebellion". I thought
that just because I was getting closer to God, well, closer than where I
was, that I wasn't rebelling against God. Boy, was I ever wrong. I've
rebelled against God, when He tells me to do/say things and I don't.
I've rebelled against my husband when I pitched a fit (like a little
kid) when he stated something didn't feel right to him. Honestly, I've
rebelled against our son by thinking that he was keeping me from
"enjoying life" or "having fun". I realized that all this rebellion has
made me out to be quite the angry, resentful person. While everyone
around me is enjoying life, I wasn't.
Rebellion: refusal to come under the authority of someone above
I was refusing to submit to God's authority over me, as well as the authority my husband has. Pastor James (Word of God Ministries) said " Rebellion give birth to stubbornness". Man, is that ever true. I was getting more stubborn with every "no" or "foot stomp".
Now, what does "don't get so heavenly minded that you're no earthly good" actually mean? Honestly, I've said that about people before. All they thought about or talked about was God. I don't know what it means to any of you, but that's what it meant to me. I thought these people were arrogant (and sometimes they were). Thing is, I want to be "so heavenly minded that I'm no earthly good". I want my mind set on the things of God. In doing that, I'll be a better wife, a better mother, a better Christian....a better me. The thing is, though, not to become arrogant in that walk....not to think of myself more highly than I am. We are to be humble in our walk with the Lord...no matter how much we know or think we know. Always be open to correction...but from those you trust (or those who "come along at just the right time). If one is truly listening to the voice of the Lord, then one can discern if the person is truly speaking from God (of course, God will NEVER have someone say anything that is contrary to HIS word...the Bible).
I've realized that I don't want to be so earthly minded that I'm no heavenly good. In other words, I don't want to be so focused on worldly things that I neglect God. THAT is what I was doing. People come and go, but God will NEVER leave me nor forsake me. People will let me down, but God will NEVER turn His back. People will lie to me. God is NOT a man that He should lie. Do I want to be more like God or more like people? The answer is quite clear....MORE like GOD. It's time to make that choice. It's God, my husband, our son, then everyone else. This time, God will NOT be neglected in order for me to be accepted by anyone. This time, my husband will NOT be neglected in order for me to have "me time". By prioritizing things, I will be better in all areas of my life. I'm looking forward to smiling more. I'm looking forward to laughing more. I'm looking forward to my husband and me getting closer than we already are. God has given my husband wisdom that I need to listen to. God has given us an amazing son who deserves NOTHING but the best from his mommy. THOSE are my goals now. NO ONE will be as important in my life as those three.
As I grow in the Lord, my witness will also get better. Right now, it's not up to par. Right now, people really can't tell, unless I say it, that I'm a Christian. That's not how it's supposed to be. With God's help, I won't become arrogant in my walk..but stand upright with confidence in who I am in God...NOT what others think of me or want me to be. That's what I say to all of you who read these. Don't be arrogant in your walk...but do be confident in who God is and what God says. God will NEVER let you down.....even when people do. NEVER be so earthly minded that you're no heavenly good.
Rebellion: refusal to come under the authority of someone above
I was refusing to submit to God's authority over me, as well as the authority my husband has. Pastor James (Word of God Ministries) said " Rebellion give birth to stubbornness". Man, is that ever true. I was getting more stubborn with every "no" or "foot stomp".
Now, what does "don't get so heavenly minded that you're no earthly good" actually mean? Honestly, I've said that about people before. All they thought about or talked about was God. I don't know what it means to any of you, but that's what it meant to me. I thought these people were arrogant (and sometimes they were). Thing is, I want to be "so heavenly minded that I'm no earthly good". I want my mind set on the things of God. In doing that, I'll be a better wife, a better mother, a better Christian....a better me. The thing is, though, not to become arrogant in that walk....not to think of myself more highly than I am. We are to be humble in our walk with the Lord...no matter how much we know or think we know. Always be open to correction...but from those you trust (or those who "come along at just the right time). If one is truly listening to the voice of the Lord, then one can discern if the person is truly speaking from God (of course, God will NEVER have someone say anything that is contrary to HIS word...the Bible).
I've realized that I don't want to be so earthly minded that I'm no heavenly good. In other words, I don't want to be so focused on worldly things that I neglect God. THAT is what I was doing. People come and go, but God will NEVER leave me nor forsake me. People will let me down, but God will NEVER turn His back. People will lie to me. God is NOT a man that He should lie. Do I want to be more like God or more like people? The answer is quite clear....MORE like GOD. It's time to make that choice. It's God, my husband, our son, then everyone else. This time, God will NOT be neglected in order for me to be accepted by anyone. This time, my husband will NOT be neglected in order for me to have "me time". By prioritizing things, I will be better in all areas of my life. I'm looking forward to smiling more. I'm looking forward to laughing more. I'm looking forward to my husband and me getting closer than we already are. God has given my husband wisdom that I need to listen to. God has given us an amazing son who deserves NOTHING but the best from his mommy. THOSE are my goals now. NO ONE will be as important in my life as those three.
As I grow in the Lord, my witness will also get better. Right now, it's not up to par. Right now, people really can't tell, unless I say it, that I'm a Christian. That's not how it's supposed to be. With God's help, I won't become arrogant in my walk..but stand upright with confidence in who I am in God...NOT what others think of me or want me to be. That's what I say to all of you who read these. Don't be arrogant in your walk...but do be confident in who God is and what God says. God will NEVER let you down.....even when people do. NEVER be so earthly minded that you're no heavenly good.
Thursday, September 26, 2013
"If MY people...."
2 Chronicles 7:14
Amplified Bible (AMP)
14 If My people, who are called by My name, shall humble themselves, pray, seek, crave, and
require of necessity My face and turn from their wicked ways, then will
I hear from heaven, forgive their sin, and heal their land.
I
see this scripture quoted quite a bit. I'm curious, though, at how many
people actually pay attention to it. I used the Amplified Bible because
it goes MUCH more into detail regarding the various words used in the
scripture. This scripture deals directly with those of us who call
ourselves Christians. I'm curious: just how many Christians are willing
to admit their sins? Oh, you don't have any? For starters....gossip,
gluttony, strife, idolatry, adultery, murder, witchcraft.
Gossip: sharing "prayer requests" all in the name of sharing to get prayer for someone else. Gluttony: yeah, not just about food. It's about craving more of anything than that which is required. Strife: causing division, being quarrelsome. This often goes hand in hand with gossiping. Idolatry: excessive
or blind adoration, reverence, devotion. How many are putting their
denomination above serving God? How many are putting their preacher
above God by thinking their preacher is above reproach? Adultery: not only is it actually having sex with someone who's not a spouse, it's also lusting after someone who's not your spouse. Murder: not simply killing someone. Jesus said that if someone has hate in their heart, that person has committed murder. Witchcraft: rebellion is compared to witchcraft. (1Samuel 15:23), astrology, fortune telling, mediums (talking to the dead).I'll be the first to admit that I'm guilty of pretty much every one of these...and a few more. I mainly listed those above because most Christians believe that they aren't really sinning since they don't "go out drinking", they "don't smoke or do drugs", they don't "actively sleep around on their spouse", or they don't "participate in the act of witchcraft". Christians forget that there are other sins for which they are quite guilty. How about this: James 4:17 says, "So any person who knows what is right to do but does not do it, to him it is sin." How many of us "know to do right" but don't do it? Sin, in the the New Testament, doesn't JUST refer to physical acts. There are many sins that are "sins of the heart". By that, I mean the intention behind our actions (look at Jesus' reference to adultery and murder for instance).
Christians, NONE of us is above reproach, not even preachers. If someone comes to you, in a loving manner, and speaks to you of behavior that isn't "quite right", don't get offended and tell him/her "the bible says to not judge". On the contrary. The Word says, in 1 Corinthians 5:12, "What [business] of mine is it and what right have I to judge outsiders? Is it not those inside [the church] upon whom you are to pass disciplinary judgment [passing censuring sentence on them as the facts require]?" It is 100% Biblical to say something regarding the behavior of those "in the church". No, I'm not saying I'm perfect. By no means am I perfect. Sometimes I feel I fall so short of God's glory that I wonder if a rocket to heaven would even be able to get me there. It's then that I remember that God shows me mercy and grace every day. Be mindful of your thoughts, your feelings, your actions. I know I have a lot to repent of. Don't you?
Saturday, September 21, 2013
Is there a war on our sons?
http://www.nationalreview.com/article/358589/what-about-our-boys-interview
According to the link, there is. From the article, "Today’s classrooms tend to be feelings-centered, risk-averse, competition-free, and sedentary. As early as pre-school and kindergarten, boys can be punished for behaving like boys. The characteristic play of young males is “rough-and-tumble” play. There is no known society where little boys fail to evince this behavior (girls do it too, but far less). In many schools, rough –and-tumble play is no longer tolerated. Well-meaning but intolerant adults are insisting “tug of war” be changed to “tug of peace”; games such as tag are being replaced with “circle of friends” — in which no one is ever out. Boys as young as five or six can be suspended for playing cops and robbers. Our schools have become hostile environments for most boys." My son was reprimanded for shaping his hand into a gun and saying "pow pow". Our society has gotten so politically correct that our sons risk punishment just for acting like boys. Mind you, I'm not talking about the train wreck of behavior that is seen in some boys. I'm talking about the rough housing, cops/robbers type of behavior that is being punished in our schools. Our sons are being sissified by society today. This has been happening for quite some time. When boys get into fights at school, whatever happened to letting them fight it out? From what I've been told, many friendships were developed between boys after a fight. No, I'm not saying let them beat the crap out of each other to the point of a hospital visit. I'm saying, let them be boys. Boys have an "built in" NEED for aggression, for being predators, for hunting prey. They have a built in need to explore. They have a built in need to be rough sometimes. This is healthy, within age appropriate boundaries. Do we let our sons beat up on everyone? Heaven no. Do we allow them to defend themselves? Oh yes. Our son has been told, by his dad and me, that should he be hit, kicked, or attacked in any way physically, that he should first tell a teacher. If it happens again, he has every right to defend himself in the appropriate way. Example: our son had a little boy in kindergarten who kept hitting or kicking him. Our son hit the boy and kicked him back. It finally took our son punching the kid in the nose for the kid to back off and leave him alone. I will NOT allow my son to be bullied because of political correctness.
Our society is teaching little boys that they are to be more sensitive. Crap, how much more sensitive do they need to be? Does society want them at the point that they have hormonal issues..beyond adolescence? Sheesh. Does society want our sons to break down and cry over every little thing? Society has taught men to be more "in touch with their feminine side" then wants to pitch a fit because men are too girlie. Well, which say does society want it? Oh yeah, I remember.......gay pride. THAT is what society is trying to turn our sons into. No, I'm not bashing gays.....crap...get off that high horse of false pride over that one. I'm point blank telling you all that I'll be damned if my son will be turned into some unicorn riding princess because he's too much of a boy. Women want a man to be a MAN. Women do NOT want some chick parading around with a penis!
My son is a boy!!!! He will act like a boy!!! He will be taught, by his daddy, to be a MAN. It's time for parents of sons to rise up and protect our children! Little girls are protected the whole way around. Our sons are not. Our sons are told to "toughen up" when harassed yet NOT allowed to properly protect themselves. Parents, teach your sons to protect themselves. Guard your sons from society's version of "manhood".
According to the link, there is. From the article, "Today’s classrooms tend to be feelings-centered, risk-averse, competition-free, and sedentary. As early as pre-school and kindergarten, boys can be punished for behaving like boys. The characteristic play of young males is “rough-and-tumble” play. There is no known society where little boys fail to evince this behavior (girls do it too, but far less). In many schools, rough –and-tumble play is no longer tolerated. Well-meaning but intolerant adults are insisting “tug of war” be changed to “tug of peace”; games such as tag are being replaced with “circle of friends” — in which no one is ever out. Boys as young as five or six can be suspended for playing cops and robbers. Our schools have become hostile environments for most boys." My son was reprimanded for shaping his hand into a gun and saying "pow pow". Our society has gotten so politically correct that our sons risk punishment just for acting like boys. Mind you, I'm not talking about the train wreck of behavior that is seen in some boys. I'm talking about the rough housing, cops/robbers type of behavior that is being punished in our schools. Our sons are being sissified by society today. This has been happening for quite some time. When boys get into fights at school, whatever happened to letting them fight it out? From what I've been told, many friendships were developed between boys after a fight. No, I'm not saying let them beat the crap out of each other to the point of a hospital visit. I'm saying, let them be boys. Boys have an "built in" NEED for aggression, for being predators, for hunting prey. They have a built in need to explore. They have a built in need to be rough sometimes. This is healthy, within age appropriate boundaries. Do we let our sons beat up on everyone? Heaven no. Do we allow them to defend themselves? Oh yes. Our son has been told, by his dad and me, that should he be hit, kicked, or attacked in any way physically, that he should first tell a teacher. If it happens again, he has every right to defend himself in the appropriate way. Example: our son had a little boy in kindergarten who kept hitting or kicking him. Our son hit the boy and kicked him back. It finally took our son punching the kid in the nose for the kid to back off and leave him alone. I will NOT allow my son to be bullied because of political correctness.
Our society is teaching little boys that they are to be more sensitive. Crap, how much more sensitive do they need to be? Does society want them at the point that they have hormonal issues..beyond adolescence? Sheesh. Does society want our sons to break down and cry over every little thing? Society has taught men to be more "in touch with their feminine side" then wants to pitch a fit because men are too girlie. Well, which say does society want it? Oh yeah, I remember.......gay pride. THAT is what society is trying to turn our sons into. No, I'm not bashing gays.....crap...get off that high horse of false pride over that one. I'm point blank telling you all that I'll be damned if my son will be turned into some unicorn riding princess because he's too much of a boy. Women want a man to be a MAN. Women do NOT want some chick parading around with a penis!
My son is a boy!!!! He will act like a boy!!! He will be taught, by his daddy, to be a MAN. It's time for parents of sons to rise up and protect our children! Little girls are protected the whole way around. Our sons are not. Our sons are told to "toughen up" when harassed yet NOT allowed to properly protect themselves. Parents, teach your sons to protect themselves. Guard your sons from society's version of "manhood".
Sunday, September 8, 2013
A "new move" of God? Really?
I read an article today that claims there is a "new move of God" coming. I'm curious. Did God ever move the original move of God someplace secret? It seems that way considering all these folks that keep looking for a move of God.
Too many Christians, today, are busy seeking that "feel good", those "holy ghost goose bumps", that "I'm here but not here" type feeling from every move that comes their way. I've heard of people driving hundreds of miles to experience these "moves of God". What makes them any different than staying at your home church and experiencing God? That's right. They have "signs" showing what God's doing. Doesn't YOUR church have signs? If not, what's the problem? The Word of God says that signs will follow them that believe. Does your church have this belief in God? Why do people in churches pray for God to show up? Aren't you supposed to be taking him in WITH you? I mean, when someone becomes a Christian, God lives inside him/her via the Holy Spirit. If you have to pray for God to show up, did you leave him at home to watch the game..and then end up praying He's got time before the game to make His presence known?
How foolish are you to think that God does something new. Is there a new way of healing? Is there a new way for provision? Is there some new way of salvation that the Holy Spirit forgot to tell the writers of the Bible? I'm curious. What exactly makes something a "new move"? Does God contradict HIS Word where it says "I am God. I change not"?
Christians have made God to be some new age godlike person that "enters us" upon reaching a "worship state of mind". You know, that state of euphoria that is experienced in most charismatic churches....and "new moves". I've heard people laugh. I've seen people, on videos, barking like dogs. These things, my friend, are NOT from God. God gives us laughter in exchange for mourning. God will NEVER make someone bark like a dog. God will NOT make someone roll all over the floor. I'm even beginning to question the "slain in the spirit" aspect of most "moves of God". Most of those who fell on their backs were struck dead. Most who were really in the presence of Almighty God fell to their faces. I've "hid" my face numerous times. Not because I was afraid of God. But because it was so overwhelming and awe inspiring. There have been times that I've fallen to my knees due to this presence. Now, which is truly being "slain in the spirit"? The position of death or the position of being humbled in the presence of God? Thing is, they can both be. HOWEVER, if it's the feeling of being so overwhelmed by God that you seek, try just getting into HIS word. Stop chasing a mere man. Stop chasing everything that gets classified as a "move of God".
How about this: just stop chasing God. God's NOT running away from you. In fact, the exact opposite. God is always with you. It is WE who run from God. If you don't "feel" God, it doesn't mean He's not there. It means that YOU aren't doing what YOU'RE supposed to be doing. How do we get closer to God? It's sure not by chasing a man or a move. It's by getting into God's Word.
Too many Christians, today, are busy seeking that "feel good", those "holy ghost goose bumps", that "I'm here but not here" type feeling from every move that comes their way. I've heard of people driving hundreds of miles to experience these "moves of God". What makes them any different than staying at your home church and experiencing God? That's right. They have "signs" showing what God's doing. Doesn't YOUR church have signs? If not, what's the problem? The Word of God says that signs will follow them that believe. Does your church have this belief in God? Why do people in churches pray for God to show up? Aren't you supposed to be taking him in WITH you? I mean, when someone becomes a Christian, God lives inside him/her via the Holy Spirit. If you have to pray for God to show up, did you leave him at home to watch the game..and then end up praying He's got time before the game to make His presence known?
How foolish are you to think that God does something new. Is there a new way of healing? Is there a new way for provision? Is there some new way of salvation that the Holy Spirit forgot to tell the writers of the Bible? I'm curious. What exactly makes something a "new move"? Does God contradict HIS Word where it says "I am God. I change not"?
Christians have made God to be some new age godlike person that "enters us" upon reaching a "worship state of mind". You know, that state of euphoria that is experienced in most charismatic churches....and "new moves". I've heard people laugh. I've seen people, on videos, barking like dogs. These things, my friend, are NOT from God. God gives us laughter in exchange for mourning. God will NEVER make someone bark like a dog. God will NOT make someone roll all over the floor. I'm even beginning to question the "slain in the spirit" aspect of most "moves of God". Most of those who fell on their backs were struck dead. Most who were really in the presence of Almighty God fell to their faces. I've "hid" my face numerous times. Not because I was afraid of God. But because it was so overwhelming and awe inspiring. There have been times that I've fallen to my knees due to this presence. Now, which is truly being "slain in the spirit"? The position of death or the position of being humbled in the presence of God? Thing is, they can both be. HOWEVER, if it's the feeling of being so overwhelmed by God that you seek, try just getting into HIS word. Stop chasing a mere man. Stop chasing everything that gets classified as a "move of God".
How about this: just stop chasing God. God's NOT running away from you. In fact, the exact opposite. God is always with you. It is WE who run from God. If you don't "feel" God, it doesn't mean He's not there. It means that YOU aren't doing what YOU'RE supposed to be doing. How do we get closer to God? It's sure not by chasing a man or a move. It's by getting into God's Word.
Monday, September 2, 2013
The road to learning about my own arrogance as a Christian
I
think that would be OUR faults. WE, as Christians, make ourselves out
to be much more holy than we really are. That, in turn, makes it seem
as if others put us on a pedestal. You're right, we're not perfect;
however, too many in the body use that as an excuse to continue in their
sin."
While I won't often share between the two of us in a blog, it was in commenting to her that I, myself, realized just how arrogant I'd gotten as a Christian. We, as Christians, have gotten our panties in a bunch so much at the sins of those "outside the church walls", that we've forgotten to look at our own reflections....the reflection that God's Word shows back to us. If we were to be honest, we'd hate what we see. We claim we love God, but do we really? We claim we serve God. Do we really? I know that love and service to God doesn't NOT equate to us being perfect...as in..NO sin whatsoever. What does it mean, though? It means that we love God enough to do HIS will (which is HIS Word). It means that, even when we fail, we get up, dust ourselves off, acknowledge it, and go forward into all truth. It doesn't mean we use our failings as a crutch to continue sinning. Yes, we are only human. However, we have the Holy Spirit inside us...guiding us into all truth...and God's Word is truth. Rightfully divide the Word of God. Discern what you are told by other so-called Christians. There are many "sheep in wolves clothing" who are eager to feed off the ignorance of Christians.
Wednesday, August 28, 2013
Civil rights
Civil rights.
What does that even mean today? Back in the day, the fight for civil rights was needed. Yes, blacks were being discriminated against in mass. Today, though, what is the fight for civil rights? Is it for voting? I think the Voting Rights Act of 1965 took care of that one. Constitutional Amendment 15 took care of that one. Is it the right to equal employment opportunities? I think affirmative action took care of that one. Is it the fight for equal education? United Negro College fund, "black" colleges, various scholarships for being "black" or a "minority". Yes, education covered. Now, what exactly is being "fought" for? While some who read this will roll their eyes and call me whatever name imaginable, ask yourself the question...and HONESTLY answer it. NO ONE can be denied anything based upon race/skin color.
The "civil rights" that are allegedly being "fought for" are already granted through various laws. So, I ask the question: What "rights" are being fought for? Before anyone tells me "it's so we can feel safe walking down the road", can I, as a "white woman" go into a predominantly black neighborhood without being questioned, without being "eyeballed"? Can I, as a "white woman" walk into a black owned business in a black neighborhood without someone thinking that I'm up to something? Yes. I had the nerve to question racial profiling towards "white folk".
Now, that I have your attention, let's make some things clear. There is profiling and denial thrust upon people every day...from every walk of life. I can't go into a "rich" type store, dressed in my jeans, t-shirt, and sneakers, without being followed or watched. I don't "look" like I belong there. I can't go into some churches in this country dressed that way, and NOT get "looks" because it doesn't "look" christian or "godly". I can't walk into a strip club, alone, without it being thought that I'm lesbian or at least bi.
Just a few weeks ago, while visiting my niece at the hospital, we were waiting on the walk way to show "walk" so we (my husband and I) could legally cross the street. While it was showing "don't walk", a black couple decided to start crossing the road (jay-walking...illegal). I happened that a white man had just pulled out of the parking area and had to wait on those two to get out of his way. They strolled, along, knowing that he would have to wait on them. When they were safe distance enough from his van, he gently started pulling off to continue his drive. The black woman eyeballed the driver and made a racially motivated remark about him. The man had every RIGHT to speak back to her but didn't. SHE and the man with her broke the law by walking across the road at an illegal moment. The walk/don't walk sign is there for protection for those who cross the street. She chose to get mad at HIS behavior...instead of her own. Had the situation been reversed....OMG..the fight that would have come forth.
So, once more, I ask the question: What "civil rights" are being "fought" for? furthermore, where's the "civility" in "fighting for civil rights"?
What does that even mean today? Back in the day, the fight for civil rights was needed. Yes, blacks were being discriminated against in mass. Today, though, what is the fight for civil rights? Is it for voting? I think the Voting Rights Act of 1965 took care of that one. Constitutional Amendment 15 took care of that one. Is it the right to equal employment opportunities? I think affirmative action took care of that one. Is it the fight for equal education? United Negro College fund, "black" colleges, various scholarships for being "black" or a "minority". Yes, education covered. Now, what exactly is being "fought" for? While some who read this will roll their eyes and call me whatever name imaginable, ask yourself the question...and HONESTLY answer it. NO ONE can be denied anything based upon race/skin color.
The "civil rights" that are allegedly being "fought for" are already granted through various laws. So, I ask the question: What "rights" are being fought for? Before anyone tells me "it's so we can feel safe walking down the road", can I, as a "white woman" go into a predominantly black neighborhood without being questioned, without being "eyeballed"? Can I, as a "white woman" walk into a black owned business in a black neighborhood without someone thinking that I'm up to something? Yes. I had the nerve to question racial profiling towards "white folk".
Now, that I have your attention, let's make some things clear. There is profiling and denial thrust upon people every day...from every walk of life. I can't go into a "rich" type store, dressed in my jeans, t-shirt, and sneakers, without being followed or watched. I don't "look" like I belong there. I can't go into some churches in this country dressed that way, and NOT get "looks" because it doesn't "look" christian or "godly". I can't walk into a strip club, alone, without it being thought that I'm lesbian or at least bi.
Just a few weeks ago, while visiting my niece at the hospital, we were waiting on the walk way to show "walk" so we (my husband and I) could legally cross the street. While it was showing "don't walk", a black couple decided to start crossing the road (jay-walking...illegal). I happened that a white man had just pulled out of the parking area and had to wait on those two to get out of his way. They strolled, along, knowing that he would have to wait on them. When they were safe distance enough from his van, he gently started pulling off to continue his drive. The black woman eyeballed the driver and made a racially motivated remark about him. The man had every RIGHT to speak back to her but didn't. SHE and the man with her broke the law by walking across the road at an illegal moment. The walk/don't walk sign is there for protection for those who cross the street. She chose to get mad at HIS behavior...instead of her own. Had the situation been reversed....OMG..the fight that would have come forth.
So, once more, I ask the question: What "civil rights" are being "fought" for? furthermore, where's the "civility" in "fighting for civil rights"?
Tuesday, August 20, 2013
Oh ye hypocrites
Having a conversation with others regarding them not being in church is quite interesting, yet typical.....too many hypocrites in the church. I wonder, though, how many accusers are willing to take a step back and look at their own lives? Honestly, not many. Yes, the Bible says, "don't judge or you'll be judged" (Matthew 7). I'm curious, though, how many are taught that Christians are to judge those INSIDE church walls (or congregation members) (1Corinthians 5:12)? This is what needs to happen: Christians need to start calling out sin within the body of Christ. Verse 13 of 1 Corinthians 5 says that GOD will judge those outside the church. This MUST be done, though, out of love for the person. Too many times, and I've been guilty of this, Christians want to point out sin while showing disgust for the sinner. Jesus never did that. Remember the woman brought to him after being caught in the act of adultery? He showed her such compassion and love. I've always had this question: Jesus had every right to call those men out for watching a woman having sex with someone who wasn't her husband. Why didn't He? What He did tell them is this, "if you're without sin, cast the first stone." Jesus was without sin, yet spoke gentle to her. He showed her love and compassion WHILE telling her to "go and sin no more". See, we forget about the "go and sin no more" part of the story. How many times have any of us told someone he/she shouldn't be sleeping around? Wait, how many times does the Bible have to tell us to not gossip? Seems to me there are plenty in the church guilty of that one. Gossip about the preacher...the praise leader...congregation members....everyone...YET they want to call someone's sin out regarding having sex. Oh yeah, what about the gluttony issue! How many of us within the church are fat? Yeah, I said it! FAT! Most of us sure didn't get that way due to a medical issue. Most of us got that way because we ate/eat too much food. Who's aware, though, that gluttony doesn't only relate to food? Gluttony denotes an unhealthy appetite for something. For some it's food. For another it may be money. For another it may be material goods. Yeah...how many of us within the church are gluttonous? Too many. Unfortunately, the "prosperity gospel" further feeds that issue (but that's another blog).
Seems to me that the church needs to worry about cleaning itself before it attempts to force clean someone else. Why do I say these things? Because I've both been guilty of this and a victim of this. I've lost "friends" because I left a church. I lost friends because I no longer believed as they do. Thankfully, God sent people to replace those who shunned me. Instead of loving me...and showing me God's love....I was left to myself. I no longer worry about "friendships" within the church. I no longer worry whether or not someone is offended by the Word.
More in the church should think about God's "Amazing Grace" (when it comes to those outside the church body). "There but for the grace of God go I."
Seems to me that the church needs to worry about cleaning itself before it attempts to force clean someone else. Why do I say these things? Because I've both been guilty of this and a victim of this. I've lost "friends" because I left a church. I lost friends because I no longer believed as they do. Thankfully, God sent people to replace those who shunned me. Instead of loving me...and showing me God's love....I was left to myself. I no longer worry about "friendships" within the church. I no longer worry whether or not someone is offended by the Word.
More in the church should think about God's "Amazing Grace" (when it comes to those outside the church body). "There but for the grace of God go I."
A time of reflection .... June 2004-August 2004
January 12, 2011 at 10:54pm
I was outside smoking and decided to have a little talk with someone. No, it wasn't God...at least not at first. It was Jayden.....the one who would have been my first born.
I was so excited the day I found out that I was pregnant. It was something that had been prayed for for quite some time. We were so happy. We started picking out names over the next few days, even started collecting baby things. The theme was going to be baby loony toons. Others, who'd been praying with and for us for years, were almost as happy as we were. The first appointment was okay...just a general checkup. The next time I went to the doctor was a different story. It was Aug 19, 2004....the day of my 34th birthday. We were supposed to be able to hear the baby's heartbeat. The doctor did the ultrasound.........only to be able to inform me that our child, who should have been 10 weeks, was only 8 weeks developed...and no heartbeat. It was then that we were told that I would miscarry. I should have known something was wrong. I'd had NO sickness at all. I was having to eat every 2 hours, even though I couldn't eat very much. A couple of weeks before my birthday, I started getting sick.....at about everything. I even had to go home from work after being there for only an hour or so....too many bathroom trips (if ya get my drift). Being told that we would lose our baby was the most horrible piece of news we could have ever received.
That night while getting a back rub, I saw a little boy who looked to be about 8 yrs old. He had dark eyes and dark hair. He looked alot like his dad. He told me, "mommy, I love you but I have to go now." Needless to say, I started crying. I knew I was looking at my son...Jayden Michael. He was the most precious site I'd ever seen.
The following night, we were out at my youngest brother's house with his family. I had to call out to my sister-in-law....she knew what was happening. My brother, C.L., rushed us all to the hospital. While waiting on them to get me in the back, I told a nurse I needed to go to the bathroom. In a nutshell, I delivered my son that night...just not in the way I'd planned. Losing him impacted me more than I thought it did at that time.
For those of you who didn't know, I actually have two children....one in heaven with God....the other here with James and me. I've cried many tears over the first one.....tears of sadness, depression, anger, questioning, etc. I think I felt every emotion possible to mankind.
I just had a talk with him a little while ago...right before I started writing this. I told him that I love him. I also told him thank you....he must have said something to God in order for me to be blessed with Jesse. He must have thought I'd be a good mommy.
All I can say now is this: Jayden, Mommy loves you so very much. I will never forget you; however, it's time for me to let you go. I didn't get to hold you in my arms, but I've held onto you so tightly since you decided you needed to leave. I will NEVER forget you. Jesse will NEVER take your place in my heart. I don't think I can love Jesse the way he needs me as long as I still hang onto you. You will forever be in my memory....the way you appeared to me....the little 8 yr old boy with eyes that shined.....your beautiful brown hair....the love in your voice when you spoke to me. Thank you so much for loving me enough to tell me goodbye before you physically left my body. I have things on here on earth that I must do. You have a great time, as I know you are, with your Great Grandpa White and your Great Grandpa Fry. I know that they love you as much as I do. I love you my son. ...... Love, Mommy.
I was outside smoking and decided to have a little talk with someone. No, it wasn't God...at least not at first. It was Jayden.....the one who would have been my first born.
I was so excited the day I found out that I was pregnant. It was something that had been prayed for for quite some time. We were so happy. We started picking out names over the next few days, even started collecting baby things. The theme was going to be baby loony toons. Others, who'd been praying with and for us for years, were almost as happy as we were. The first appointment was okay...just a general checkup. The next time I went to the doctor was a different story. It was Aug 19, 2004....the day of my 34th birthday. We were supposed to be able to hear the baby's heartbeat. The doctor did the ultrasound.........only to be able to inform me that our child, who should have been 10 weeks, was only 8 weeks developed...and no heartbeat. It was then that we were told that I would miscarry. I should have known something was wrong. I'd had NO sickness at all. I was having to eat every 2 hours, even though I couldn't eat very much. A couple of weeks before my birthday, I started getting sick.....at about everything. I even had to go home from work after being there for only an hour or so....too many bathroom trips (if ya get my drift). Being told that we would lose our baby was the most horrible piece of news we could have ever received.
That night while getting a back rub, I saw a little boy who looked to be about 8 yrs old. He had dark eyes and dark hair. He looked alot like his dad. He told me, "mommy, I love you but I have to go now." Needless to say, I started crying. I knew I was looking at my son...Jayden Michael. He was the most precious site I'd ever seen.
The following night, we were out at my youngest brother's house with his family. I had to call out to my sister-in-law....she knew what was happening. My brother, C.L., rushed us all to the hospital. While waiting on them to get me in the back, I told a nurse I needed to go to the bathroom. In a nutshell, I delivered my son that night...just not in the way I'd planned. Losing him impacted me more than I thought it did at that time.
For those of you who didn't know, I actually have two children....one in heaven with God....the other here with James and me. I've cried many tears over the first one.....tears of sadness, depression, anger, questioning, etc. I think I felt every emotion possible to mankind.
I just had a talk with him a little while ago...right before I started writing this. I told him that I love him. I also told him thank you....he must have said something to God in order for me to be blessed with Jesse. He must have thought I'd be a good mommy.
All I can say now is this: Jayden, Mommy loves you so very much. I will never forget you; however, it's time for me to let you go. I didn't get to hold you in my arms, but I've held onto you so tightly since you decided you needed to leave. I will NEVER forget you. Jesse will NEVER take your place in my heart. I don't think I can love Jesse the way he needs me as long as I still hang onto you. You will forever be in my memory....the way you appeared to me....the little 8 yr old boy with eyes that shined.....your beautiful brown hair....the love in your voice when you spoke to me. Thank you so much for loving me enough to tell me goodbye before you physically left my body. I have things on here on earth that I must do. You have a great time, as I know you are, with your Great Grandpa White and your Great Grandpa Fry. I know that they love you as much as I do. I love you my son. ...... Love, Mommy.
Never forget
September 11, 2012 at 8:23am
September 11,2001 ...... denial, anger, depression, distrust ... patriotism, unity, togetherness. Such an extreme range of emotion happened that day. It was the day that most of us, as Americans, truly began to learn about Islam. Here we are, 11 years later. We are now told by our government that Islam is a religion of peace. Peace. September 11, 2001 was anything but a show of peace. It was a direct attack against US.....as individuals.....as a nation. With this election, please keep in mind the friends that each candidate has. One has friends who are radical muslims. One has friends who seek only to infiltrate and take over our country. One has friends who have nothing better to do than make sure Americans suffer. Why? Simply because we are Americans. This election is about making sure that we, as a nation, as individuals, don't lose any more of our freedoms. Remember, September 11, 2001 hasn't ended for our military who still fight those who would harm us. How will you show your support for this country? How will you show your patriotism this November? How will YOU show YOUR support for our military...the military that one candidate is wanting to discredit by taking away some of the days they have to get their votes in? How will you explain to your children...your grandchildren...YOU vote when they ask about this day in the future. Will you tell them that you voted to bring back OUR freedom? Will you tell them that you voted to help bring pride back to this country? Will you tell them that you voted to bring back respect for this country? OR.....will you tell them that you voted for someone who has friends who seek to only harm us by infiltrating our government? Remember, radical Islam is still around. It's called the Muslim Brotherhood. There is ONE candidate who has allowed them to take place in OUR government. There is ONE candidate who welcomed them, with open arms, into the place in which he lives. On the other hand, we have a candidate who has given much to his society. We have a candidate we can choose who follows the Bible by helping the less fortunate. We have a candidate we can choose who has turned his state around for the better....created jobs, took NO pay as Governor...took NO pay for over 28 years for work that he's performed. This election isn't just about picking a candidate for the office of the President. This election is making sure that those responsible for the events of 9/11 aren't allowed to be in control of OUR country. If you are still undecided, maybe you need to remind yourself of history and events happening in Islamic countries. This election is about standing up for OUR freedoms....for OUR rights....for OUR nation!
September 11,2001 ...... denial, anger, depression, distrust ... patriotism, unity, togetherness. Such an extreme range of emotion happened that day. It was the day that most of us, as Americans, truly began to learn about Islam. Here we are, 11 years later. We are now told by our government that Islam is a religion of peace. Peace. September 11, 2001 was anything but a show of peace. It was a direct attack against US.....as individuals.....as a nation. With this election, please keep in mind the friends that each candidate has. One has friends who are radical muslims. One has friends who seek only to infiltrate and take over our country. One has friends who have nothing better to do than make sure Americans suffer. Why? Simply because we are Americans. This election is about making sure that we, as a nation, as individuals, don't lose any more of our freedoms. Remember, September 11, 2001 hasn't ended for our military who still fight those who would harm us. How will you show your support for this country? How will you show your patriotism this November? How will YOU show YOUR support for our military...the military that one candidate is wanting to discredit by taking away some of the days they have to get their votes in? How will you explain to your children...your grandchildren...YOU vote when they ask about this day in the future. Will you tell them that you voted to bring back OUR freedom? Will you tell them that you voted to help bring pride back to this country? Will you tell them that you voted to bring back respect for this country? OR.....will you tell them that you voted for someone who has friends who seek to only harm us by infiltrating our government? Remember, radical Islam is still around. It's called the Muslim Brotherhood. There is ONE candidate who has allowed them to take place in OUR government. There is ONE candidate who welcomed them, with open arms, into the place in which he lives. On the other hand, we have a candidate who has given much to his society. We have a candidate we can choose who follows the Bible by helping the less fortunate. We have a candidate we can choose who has turned his state around for the better....created jobs, took NO pay as Governor...took NO pay for over 28 years for work that he's performed. This election isn't just about picking a candidate for the office of the President. This election is making sure that those responsible for the events of 9/11 aren't allowed to be in control of OUR country. If you are still undecided, maybe you need to remind yourself of history and events happening in Islamic countries. This election is about standing up for OUR freedoms....for OUR rights....for OUR nation!
Is God a changing God?
Posted as a note on FB November 2, 2012 at 9:13am
"My God is a changing God, a loving God, a God who wants his children to live happy and peaceful. I feel quite comfortable in kneeling before him on Judgement Day and I am strong in my faith." (an opinion seen on my news feed)
"Let me tell you something people!!!! God does NOT change!!! HE is God Almighty!
Malachi 3:6
For I am the LORD, I change not
The ONLY way His children will be happy and peaceful is to obey HIS words!!! It is strictly by HIS mercy that we are not immediately judged. It is HIS grace that brought us salvation. People, if you think there is any other way to be a Christian..outside the shed blood of Jesus the Messiah....you are in danger of never being with God for eternity. I don't claim to be perfect...I know I'm not. I also know, however, that it's by the grace of God through the shed blood of Jesus that I"m saved. There is NOTHING I can do to earn that salvation. The opinion that you being "comfortable" doesn't equate to salvation. That's a false sense of security where YOUR salvation is concerned. Wake up. When you stand before God Almighty, how will you plead? Innocent due to your own works of the flesh? OR...guilty and unworthy but covered with the blood of Jesus? Wake up people!!! The day of judgement is at hand. God will reign down judgement upon this land. A refiner's fire!!!! Purging the unclean!!! The heaven's are slowly opening up. Ask for forgiveness for having the arrogant attitude that you are capable of obtaining salvation your own way. Our nation has asked: My God! My God! Why have you forsaken us? God would say unto you: "It is not I that have forsaken you. It is YOU who have forsaken Me. I AM!!! I Am the Creator of the Universe! I Am the giver of salvation! I Am the ONE who makes a way out of no way! I AM !!! I AM!!!! I AM the Alpha and Omega! I AM the Aleph Tav! All things begin and end with Me and Me alone! I love you so very much! All I've wanted is for you to kneel at my feet. All I've ever wanted ss for you to follow Me. I created you to worship me! I created you to trust in ME! I CREATED YOU!!! I watched at you were formed in the womb of your mother. I watched as you were birthed. I listened as you took your first breath. I was there the first time you opened your eyes. I've NEVER left you. I'm where I've always been. It is you who've left me. I AM ever present! I AM !!! I AM everything!"
"My God is a changing God, a loving God, a God who wants his children to live happy and peaceful. I feel quite comfortable in kneeling before him on Judgement Day and I am strong in my faith." (an opinion seen on my news feed)
"Let me tell you something people!!!! God does NOT change!!! HE is God Almighty!
Malachi 3:6
For I am the LORD, I change not
The ONLY way His children will be happy and peaceful is to obey HIS words!!! It is strictly by HIS mercy that we are not immediately judged. It is HIS grace that brought us salvation. People, if you think there is any other way to be a Christian..outside the shed blood of Jesus the Messiah....you are in danger of never being with God for eternity. I don't claim to be perfect...I know I'm not. I also know, however, that it's by the grace of God through the shed blood of Jesus that I"m saved. There is NOTHING I can do to earn that salvation. The opinion that you being "comfortable" doesn't equate to salvation. That's a false sense of security where YOUR salvation is concerned. Wake up. When you stand before God Almighty, how will you plead? Innocent due to your own works of the flesh? OR...guilty and unworthy but covered with the blood of Jesus? Wake up people!!! The day of judgement is at hand. God will reign down judgement upon this land. A refiner's fire!!!! Purging the unclean!!! The heaven's are slowly opening up. Ask for forgiveness for having the arrogant attitude that you are capable of obtaining salvation your own way. Our nation has asked: My God! My God! Why have you forsaken us? God would say unto you: "It is not I that have forsaken you. It is YOU who have forsaken Me. I AM!!! I Am the Creator of the Universe! I Am the giver of salvation! I Am the ONE who makes a way out of no way! I AM !!! I AM!!!! I AM the Alpha and Omega! I AM the Aleph Tav! All things begin and end with Me and Me alone! I love you so very much! All I've wanted is for you to kneel at my feet. All I've ever wanted ss for you to follow Me. I created you to worship me! I created you to trust in ME! I CREATED YOU!!! I watched at you were formed in the womb of your mother. I watched as you were birthed. I listened as you took your first breath. I was there the first time you opened your eyes. I've NEVER left you. I'm where I've always been. It is you who've left me. I AM ever present! I AM !!! I AM everything!"
"White Privilege"...does it really exist?
Back in the day, admittedly, there was "white privilege". In times
past, blacks were made to sit in the back of the bus; blacks were made
to drink from separate drinking fountains; blacks were made to enter
businesses through a back door. In today's day and time, this no longer
exists. How truly sad that the racists attitudes of the day are
determined to keep minorities down under an invisible thumb of cultural
slavery. Yes, cultural slavery. There are those who are being told that
to "behave differently or think differently" than one's culture (in the
eyes of the media) is to hate oneself, race or "people". Why is it that
many choose to believe this lie perpetuated in order to gain complete
control over an entire group of people? What's truly mind-boggling is
the FACT that these same people believe they are "thinking for
themselves". Thinking for oneself means stepping OUTSIDE the lines of
race or culture, gaining information, and making an educated decision
based solely upon facts. It does NOT mean following someone because
he/she makes you feel better by making you seem inferior to others. I'm
saddened that our young people, today, are being taught this tragic
mess. Forget that everyone has the same right to success. Our young
people, today, are being taught that "whites" or "non-minorities" are
responsible for keeping everyone else down. Why is this? Why would
anyone choose to allow himself/herself to be told that he/she is
inferior to someone based solely on the color of skin or ethnic
background? Yes. Cultural slavery. Why would anyone choose to remain in a
cultural box and allow another to hold the key? That is what people
like Al Sharpton and Jesse Jackson do: put people in a box and retain
the key. THEY dictate what those people can and can't do. THEY deceive
the masses into believing that non-minorities dictate how they, the
minority, will be treated. THEY say that "whitey" is the problem for
everything. I don't recall ever seeing a "white college", a "white
scholarship", a "united white people's college fund", a "white
entertainment television", a "white awards program". I do, however, see
BET, United Negro College Fund, NAACP, Black Colleges, various "black"
awards programs. There are even awards programs geared towards latinos.
Illegals are given a free ride to education, on all OUR dimes. That's
NOT "white privilege" (even though people still think Zimmerman is a
"white-hispanic).
Someone would say that, upon a black man and white man entering a store at the same time, the black man being followed, that the white man had "white privilege". How about this: how did each present himself upon entering the store? What was said through their body language? What was the look in their eyes? I, too, have had someone "grill" me in a store. I had a black store manager NOT believe when I told her I'd put $20 into a self checkout. She even had the deputy at the store watch the security video. Where was that "white privilege"? If I enter a predominantly black clothing store, and I get "that look", where is the "white privilege"? If go into a neighborhood, in which I don't live, and police are called on me, where is the "white privilege"? If I attend a predominantly black church, and feel the stares, where is the "white privilege"?
How about Affirmative Action? While I do believe that, at one time, such was needed; however, in todays day and time, it is a tool used to make sure that jobs are given to someone based solely on some racial makeup required for an employer. Heaven forbid that a more qualified candidate get the job...Affirmative Action is solely about race. Someone claimed that I, as a "government and socially called white woman", am able to take advantage of it due to being a woman. Why would I want to do that? I want to be judged on my qualifications for a job, NOT because I am a female. Others should want a job based on their qualifications, not the color of their skin. Affirmative Action degrades any individual who takes part of it. It degrades the hard work someone has done in order to use skin color as a hiring tool (or even education).
I really don't care about the color of someone's skin. I care more about the content of someone's character. I care that people choose to pull themselves up out of the mire and succeed through hard work. I care that people NOT fall slave to cultural slave masters. I care that people realize THEIR value....NOT the value dictated to them by those who make money off of them.
Someone would say that, upon a black man and white man entering a store at the same time, the black man being followed, that the white man had "white privilege". How about this: how did each present himself upon entering the store? What was said through their body language? What was the look in their eyes? I, too, have had someone "grill" me in a store. I had a black store manager NOT believe when I told her I'd put $20 into a self checkout. She even had the deputy at the store watch the security video. Where was that "white privilege"? If I enter a predominantly black clothing store, and I get "that look", where is the "white privilege"? If go into a neighborhood, in which I don't live, and police are called on me, where is the "white privilege"? If I attend a predominantly black church, and feel the stares, where is the "white privilege"?
How about Affirmative Action? While I do believe that, at one time, such was needed; however, in todays day and time, it is a tool used to make sure that jobs are given to someone based solely on some racial makeup required for an employer. Heaven forbid that a more qualified candidate get the job...Affirmative Action is solely about race. Someone claimed that I, as a "government and socially called white woman", am able to take advantage of it due to being a woman. Why would I want to do that? I want to be judged on my qualifications for a job, NOT because I am a female. Others should want a job based on their qualifications, not the color of their skin. Affirmative Action degrades any individual who takes part of it. It degrades the hard work someone has done in order to use skin color as a hiring tool (or even education).
I really don't care about the color of someone's skin. I care more about the content of someone's character. I care that people choose to pull themselves up out of the mire and succeed through hard work. I care that people NOT fall slave to cultural slave masters. I care that people realize THEIR value....NOT the value dictated to them by those who make money off of them.
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